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Blessed

Joshua makes me want to become a better version of myself. Not only that but he has given me so much love that I'm learning to spread the love and kindness in many forms. Our relationship is truly amazing. All I want to do is make him happy and feel loved and appreciated and he wants to protect me from everything and provide for me. We are also completely ourselves with one another. I'm not myself with 99% of the people in my life so to find a lifetime partner and best friend who is just as equally strange as I am is the best feeling. He can also calm my anxiety like no other person can. I've always been everyone's second or last choice in everything. He makes sure I know I am important to him and I'm his first and only choice. I'm also currently crying because I literally just feeel so blessed and undeserving of him. We had two real and honest heart to heart moments when I visited him for family day and they had to be some of my favorite moments with him. Granted I've spent a lot of time with this man so it's hard to really choose. He means everything to me honestly. I would change the direction the earth spins for him if he didn't like it. He thinks we could get married too soon and I would resent him but I completly disagree. If I don't marry him it would be the biggest mistake I could ever make. He makes me soooo happy and makes me know I am loved and I will always do my best to make him feel the same way. It's going to be until death do us part because he is my soul mate for sure.

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