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My Heart is Full

All I can think about is how freaking blessed I am. Don't get me wrong, I've been through some shit but life isn't perfect. But my boyfriend, oh my god where do I even start with this man. I'm sitting here crying, excuse me, bawling happy tears at 4:30am because I'm just so grateful for him. He literally is my best friend. I genuinely love to just talk to him everyday or just sit in silence with him. I've never had a love this strong for anyone but my horse. Not even my own family which sounds horrible but it's true. Honestly I get along better with his family. He is just so... gosh he has me at a loss for words. I've been trying to describe him since I met him but I honestly can never do him justice with words. I wish I could just tell everyone about him like 24/7 and take him to meet everyone. One side of me wishes that everyone could see what I see in him. But then everyone would start to fall in love with him so the other side of me is like hell no. He is so special. He doesn't realize this yet but he is. Not only special to me but I know he can do big things one day. I have so much faith in him. And I know that no relationship is perfect but god, ours is pretty darn close. I'm the most indecisive person(he would totally agree with me on that) but I'm more than positive he is my soul mate and that I want to marry him. Blah blah blah marriage is hard blah blah. I know this. Any sort of relationship is hard because everyone has different opinions and people take out there stress on the ones they love most. But Joshua and I have always had open minds about each others opinions which is one of my favorite things about us as a couple. We disagree but we still find a way to understand each other. We also have become really good at expressing what bothers us/annoys us about each other. We also will have our own lives outside of each other so we won't literally be together 24/7. But I'm willing to take a step out of my normal life that I'm very comfortable with into a new life with him that will make a lot of changes to my life because I couldn't image the rest of my life without him. It's going to be weird/different having to learn to do adult things and moving but it's so incredibly worth it. I love my best friend Joshua Michael Laskoski more than anything and I can't wait to marry him!

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