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My Heart is a Storm

Fun Fact: I hate turkey. It has like no flavor. I'll eat it but I'd prefer ham.
So I have finally come to the conclusion that I'm just never going to be able to be the same person as I was when I had Uma, whether it be with or without medication and counseling. People can make me quite heated or frustrated by doing things that I would have shrugged at before. Its kind of saddening because its like I have a constant fire burning in me and it creates tons of energy but the only way my body can rid of it is through anger or crying. I'd prefer to cry because when I get angry it puts everyone in a bad/mad mood so its much easier to cry and beat myself up instead. Basically the old me is half a world away in a hole that is impossible to find... that is an odd way of describing it but oh well. Also I should be finishing my final essay that has to be 10 pages instead of typing this but I'll get to it eventually... OOOOOOHH I had a really amazing show with Juliet on Saturday. We only did two jumper classes and got third in both which is amazing considering the last jumper class I did was in April and I didn't place. I'm defiantly getting her a hackamore. I also managed to kill my phone without even cracking it. The screen just stopped working so I won't get it fixed until the weekend. Then I went to a beautifully, stunning wedding Sunday. Speaking of which there have been things this past week that have changed my views on people/ideals/things/etc. There have also been things that I've been trying to erase from my memory that won't erase which sucks hella bad because I would do anything to forget.
Random thought: why can I relate to all of Auroras songs. PS: 95% of them are sad...
I have to work tomorrow. At Cracker Barrel. On Thanksgiving. KILL. ME. NOW....... PLEASE.
Fun Fact: Did you know that there are certain companies that if you don't capitalize their name they can sue you (Granted it would be an American company because other countries don't feel the need to sue people for everything they do. So thanks America. For having a mixture of more than half of the countries in the world and somehow doing the opposite of what all these countries would do). They have hired lawyers that specifically look for their company name that is not capitalized and you will get a warning letter and if it happens again you will get sued. Like Jeep. If I don't capitalize it then it is highly likely I will get a letter from Jeep's lawyers threatening to sue me.
Random thought: I have only had a glass of milk, a single piece of ham, and a few vanilla wafers all day. And I worked today and I'm still not hungry. I'm pretty sure I could survive the Apocalypse because I barley eat already.
PS: I did not edit this blog and I'm not sorry for the mistakes or grammatical errors because I make mistakes because I'm only human. Well at least on the weekdays. I'm a unicorn on the weekends.

My Heart is a Storm is a song by Aurora by the way. :)

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