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Two weeks doesn't seem like a long time. Unless the four months before those two weeks you were riding almost every day. I rode her for the first time yesterday and today since Juliet her costly vet and farrier visit. I can not explain how great Juliet feels. She feels better than when I first got her. She is swooshing her tail and willingly doing an extended trot WITH her head carriage correct! She has a neck and a belly on her now! Her weight is perfect and her coat has dapples and is extremely shiny! Ahhh! I'm just so happy. Trust me. It's not because it was the perfect ride because it defiantly was not. It was far from it but at least she tried for me. That's all I really ask for when a horse has been off for two weeks. I'm happy because she is obviously very happy compared to how she was feeling before the vet visited. I'm not sure if any of this is making any since but oh well. I most likely have a show in October and December. It will be my first show jum...

Apparently if I do much activity in one day and then don't go to sleep when I probably should, I have emotional breaks. And by that I mean an emotional break from me pretending to be okay and bursting out into tears and loud, obnoxious crying. Like the one I'm having now. I legit miss Uma. I miss how personalble she was. She used to nudge me coming up from the field or stuff her nose in my face expecting a treat. I miss having to hold her back from lunging at passing horses. I miss her black legs. I miss the little white hairs she had on the medial side of her front pastern. I miss when she used to get scared at something and would unknowingly push herself into me because she trusted me to protect her. I miss our bond. I not only want her back but I need her back. I love riding but it isn't at all what it used to be now that she is gone. I don't get excited about buying horse stuff anymore. I don't get excited about going to the barn. God. There were so  many small ...

So this makes absolutely zero since to me. My math teacher tries to tell my class that bad grades aren't a big deal and we shouldn't sweat it. Um. No actually. Grades are a very large part of what happens to you after high school and the rest of your life on earth. My English teacher knows whats up. He went on a mini rant today explaining why he grades so hard. He believes that one day we will all have a degree in something and we don't deserve that degree if we can not use the English language properly. I completly agree with him. Now don't get me wrong. I definitely do not want my math teacher grading any harder but I do think that his views on grades are wrong. Grades are important. That is a fact of life. Juliet got her teeth floated yesterday. She also got a lameness exam. Wait backup. Sorry. I keep forgetting I'm talking in horsey terms. Teeth floating is when you file down horses teeth with a file because horses teeth are similar to hamsters in the idea tha...

So most of this post was written in my second period class on a sheet of paper because I was extremely close to passing out from boredom so yeah I'm retyping it to my blog... I'm writing this on paper in my math class because I'm very close to falling asleep due to my teacher's monotone voice box. He is currently going over our classwork from last class and trying to make jokes but his attempt is failing... miserably.  He also is rambling on about unnecessary detail about each question. Such as details on the trees in a certain forrest. Did I mention this was math class?  It would be different if they were facts but they aren't.  If they were facts, I would have a little bit of knowledge that I could throw in my random fact section in my brain. But they are his opinions so they are irrelevant to me(no offense to him).  It also doesn't help that my English professor is quite the entertainer and I have his class before this class. Side Note: He made a joke abo...

I forgot to host this the other day... opps. I've been thinking of the most absolutely stupid puns/jokes today. I'm not sure why either. I just took a break from my English reading because I thought of another pun and it is to imbecile to not tell my few readers about. So for my reading assignment, I have to read like 25ish pages about sentence structure, phrases, clauses, parts of speech, and etc. Well. I'm about to finish taking notes on the part of speech section and I was writing down the definition is an exclamatory word used to gain attention and I just thought. That would a nice way to call someone an attention whore... like honestly. What? Who... what in the even???! Low key worried for my sanity. Side Note: My math(probability/statistics) teacher is hella weird. He was talking about the census and then randomly(he doesn't like that word because apparently everything has an equal chance of happening so it isn't random??) says that he knew a guy named Ch...

I had my first English college class this morning!! 😬 The class itself will be pretty hard but the teacher had me cracking up so bad. He was explaining why grammar is important and gave a few teacher experiences. The first one was a sentence that meant to say "I hoard lots of books." but instead of hoard, the student wrote "whored". Then my teacher said he wrote beside the word "Does your mother know about this?". God. I think I was the only one who found it amusing. The other example said something like "The Union depilitated the Confederate forces." The reason this is so funny is because the student meant deBilitated. DePilitated means to remove ones hair... so my teacher then goes on to describe what it would look like if the Union forced their way into the confederates base and started shaving all the men and stating that they took their manhood. I thought this was the funniest thing. I was still chuckling for a good 5 minutes after he finis...

So I started my senior year today. And if I see one more post that says "Its our last first day! So sad!" Im going to go full savage on everyone. It isn't your last first day. COLLEGE???! WHAT ABOUT WHEN YOU GET A JOB OR START YOUR FIRST DAY AS A MARRIED COUPLE OR A PARENT OR BLAHFOSBFIENDUAO???! Anyway, after going out to the barn tonight it kind of hit me that Uma won't be apart of my senior year like I had always hoped. I always wanted to take my senior and graduation photos with her. I guess I could do it with Juliet but it wouldn't be the same. I finally went out and bought a shadow box for Uma when I left the barn. It only took me 5 and a 1/2 months. I put her halter and her brushes in there. I'm going to add more items/pictures to it later on because it looks a little barren but for now it will be fine. I've avoided doing this because I feel as if I'm boxing what is left of her up and putting her away. I also still haven't gotten my brac...

So technically this is my first road trip. I consider a road trip to be when you stop in a city for a day or two and then move on to the next and this is my first time doing so. I am currently in Kentucky and have been since yesterday evening! Kentucky is one of my favorite states to visit mainly because the large population of horse people but I also love the scenery. There are beautiful rolling hills and emerald-green Kentucky grass(if you have been to Kentucky then you know I am not exaggorating on this). We are staying in Bowling Green, Kentucky with my bestfriends moms, bestfriend... hope that made since. So how about the son, of the man of the house(its much easier saying that then explaining who he is) is the lead guitarest in the band Weezer and helps write most of the songs! How freaking cool is that!!!!! If you don't know who Weezer is then look up the song "Say It Ain't So". You have most likley have heard of this song unless you are still a small, sad, b...

Don't get me wrong. I want to be happy but I'm in between fences. On one side I want to be happy but on the other side I want to hide in a corner and just grieve for Uma. That is the very least she deserves. That horse would've taken me to the ends of the Earth and back. I wish people would stop looking at her as my "pet". She was my best friend. She contributed to most of my qualities such as patience and forgiveness. She was not a house pet. I had to trust her with my LIFE every time I got near her. I don't trust anyone with my life. Okay. Actually I trust my best friend because I know she would take a bullet for me just as I would for her. But still! I trusted a 1,000 pound animal who doesn't didn't even speak over the entire human species excluding my best friend. Which is actually entirely sad on my part because I don't trust anyone. I don't have the slightest clue why I don't trust anyone, but I don't. I don't know. I just wi...

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while. I've been super busy or to tired to write so this is what has been going on in my life •So it's been a week since my wreck and how about my insurance company told me I should of died. Awkwardddd. Also my anxiety was completely okay during the whole scene and I was calm even though I almost died and should have died but when I talk to someone I like I get anxiety?! WHAT??! WHY?! •I've been great ever since I started my new medication. On cloud 9 actually. •I started a new Netflix series Tuesday and was already on one of the last episodes in season 2(don't judge me and my binging) and I went to go watch it last night and it was GONE. IT DISAPPEARED FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH AND I'M SUPER UPSET ABOUT IT BECAUSE I LOVED THIS SHOW! NFKSJWHYSOSKAJAHAHH!!!! •Juliet was a fantastic angel in my lesson Friday! •I brought out a friend to meet/ride her Saturday and it was the funniest thing! •I rode her yesterday and she was a tad...