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Jumping Clinic

I had an awesome clinic with Freddy(a professional show jumper from Tryon NC) the other day. He basically just confirmed what I already knew that I needed to work on but he also gave me several tips and exercises that helped me. One of my problems is having my hands to high. I do this because I ride Juliet in a hackamore and putting my hands where they should actually be doesn't actually have any effect on her. I put my hands down when I see the distance because she knows her job and I want to let her do it but until I see it I keep my hands up to slow her down. But he wanted me to keep my hands down the entire time but oh well. Next time I want him to get on her. It would be pretty cool to see him ride miss little spunky pony.

I'm very content with how life is going at the moment. It also helps that I'm on depression/anxiety medicine so I don't pay to much attention to things that would normally upset me. Which is a good and a bad thing. It's great not being sad or mad all the time since I'm on medicine but on the other hand I don't feel like myself. Like my depression feels like a bruise. I know it's there but I don't feel it until it is triggered by certain things at certain times of the day. Or I find myself trailing off into thought about Uma. And with my medicine it's like I don't have any emotion. Or it dullsifys my sadness so I don't break down. But after a couple of weeks it's like my sadness/guilt/anger/etc have all been building up and I just blow up. I haven't hit this months blow up point but I know it's coming because it always does. Ehhh whatever. It happens........ Like literally. THATS EXACLTY WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT WHEN I SAY I HAVE NO EMTION! LIZ!!! STOP!

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