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Not gonna lie. Today has been shit and stressful and literally everyone has pissed me off today in some sort of way. And because my day was shit my mind in the past always went to Uma but the problem is that it still does that. Unfortunate Uma is dead so when I have a freaking poop day my mind goes to my dead horse and I cry and just start thinking hella suicidal. (No. I'm not gonna kill myself. Go away. I don't want your affection. I only want my Uma who is freaking 9ft in the ground and not breathing so no. You cannot help me in any sort of way. Fuck off. Honestly. I don't give any flying shits if I cuss on this because it's my blog and don't read it if you don't like swearing. Okay fine. I'll scratch it out but you will still see it.) UGGGHGJFHFHGHDJSNDJANS but high key if I could just get hit by a truck right now it would be great. Or if someone magically could show up at my door step and shoot me or stab me. Or something. Low key think I need my depression meds again. WELL FUCK! HERES AN AXIETY ATTACK. SCREW SLEEPING RIGHT SINCE MY HEART RATE IS SO FUCKING HIGH RIGHT NOW. Also I fully appolize to anyone who reads this because it probably put you in some type of mood that is negative and I'm sorry that I did that.

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