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Had another interview today. Most likely going to work there.

I just got done riding Juliet and I'm about to leave the barn but I need to write this down or I'm going to burst out into tears. I probably will either way but better while I'm sitting in the car them driving. Or not. So Juliet accidentally bit me while I was walking her to her pasture and feeding her a treat. I don't care that it happened but it just made me remember that Uma never once bit me. Ever. I just keep assuming that I can treat other horses like her but in reality that's not how this works. Juliet is completely different from Uma. I miss the little things. The ones that would have meant nothing to anyone else. I miss being able to walk Uma to her pasture with out a halter or rope on. She would follow me anywhere. I miss her staying with me when I put her back on her pasture and her giving me kisses until one of us finally left. I don't know why this week is so particularly hard for me but I think it is worse then the first couple weeks that Uma was dead.

Not sure how much I enjoy riding anymore. I enjoy horses but it isn't as fun to ride anymore. I don't know. I'm not sure anymore 😕

I'm going to spend the rest of the night watching free movies online 😒

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